First loop of Revelation of Mind: my life philosophy found direction — fears I didn't know were fears dissolved

I ran the sub — what the hell is this sub? It's the first sub I feel like having true freedom in. I always tend to think things philosophically, trying to crack the code in my mind. After several tries I had just said to myself "This is BS, we just need to work hard." But today I ran my philosophy through my head again, and I reached a point where my philosophy of life was actually getting direction. I refined my thought process around what success means to me. It seems like I have so much fear stored in my mind that I never realized were fears — they were just normal to me. And in terms of productivity, this is far better than any alpha motivation for me. I want to know myself, and this sub is greatly helping with that — including my studies and ADHD symptoms. I was off subs for 9-10 months and was only waiting for a title like this.