First I felt like I'm not real and that nothing is real — after that I realized that even if nothing is real, it's OK, we still exist. After finishing my loop everything feels more real; I feel more real, more like a human being with a body. I felt intense sadness but it didn't immerse me — I felt it without being swept away. Strangely, I thought about my ex and instead of being hurt about how she wronged me, I felt sorry for how I wronged her — I even wrote an apology. Now I feel very, very calm. Everything has slowed down, nothing is rushed, I feel safe.