I now understand that my ex not only cheated on me but was a very bad partner who treated me poorly. I couldn't see it because I was so in love. My supposed toxicity was only a reaction to hers — and even then, it wasn't real. I was manipulated into believing I was the toxic one. I see it so clearly now that I think: how did you stay with her when she treated you like this? I had a false image of her in my mind but it's not reality — it's fiction. Now when I see the truth I feel no love towards her and I will not miss her anymore.