One Week of Khan: Better Speaker, Less Approval-Seeking, Masculine Aggression Rising

Almost finished my first week and some things to report: I'm becoming a better speaker — I have a certain wit that is absurd but blunt. The desire to take action has grown. I've realized that constantly seeking people's approval is making me weak on the inside and I need to cut it out. I've become really aware of power dynamics and got irked when I remembered someone being disrespectful to me last week — at the moment it hadn't bothered me. More masculine aggression and disdain for a lot of social dynamic BS. Reflecting a lot on my teenage years: I realized I felt powerless in my own home, couldn't have the outlets other teens did. In a certain way I feel like I was trapped in that time period of my life. Even though I'm older. I've started to want to pray more. Khan is unearthing things I didn't know were there.